Second Trimester Update
Love working with Shop Pink Blush. They carry the cutest pregnancy and non-pregnancy women’s clothes. This dress is part of their maternity line, comes in a variety of colors, and is so comfortable to wear. Loving olive green for the second year in a row! Preggo or not, I’m obsessed with dresses! I’m obsessed with lots of things actually...ha! However, the combo of the two…was perfect for me!
Here, I just hit 28 weeks and am officially out of the Second Trimester! Whoohoo! Yay, I’m so close to meeting my sweet baby!!
It’s so funny how with my first pregnancy, I was almost in tears, as I neared the end. I loved being pregnant so much, and didn’t want that stage to end. Now, having experienced the unconditional love and joy that comes with a newborn…I’m so ready to just to get the show on the road, and meet her! Now I know how much better it is...like 1000% better…once you have your baby in your arms! Oh my gosh, I’m getting an adrenaline, happy rush, just thinking about it...ha!
However, I’m so honored and grateful for the opportunity to be pregnant! I thank God every day, and hate to even complain in the slightest. Yet, in being completely honest with how I’m feeling, and expressing myself with this blog, I have to lay it out there. Although, please don’t mistake this for even 0.001% of ungratefulness. It always bothered me, when people would complain about the slightest pregnancy issues, or make it into such a, woe is me, issue. Especially, when I would so desperately do anything, just to have the honor of being pregnant, both the first and second time, sickness and all.
So in keeping it real, this second trimester, unlike with my first baby, was still really difficult, although not nearly as bad as the first trimester. Months 2 and 3, I literally felt like I had the flu every day, and would parent my child mostly from the floor. Uggh, it was so horrible, I could remember how just having to lift her, to change her diaper, was so painful and nauseating. Somedays, I’d feel good around 3-6pm, and could shower and get things done. Although, almost every day I felt like I was going to die, and with no help with baby H, omg, it was so hard! I cried secretly a few times. I pray she doesn’t remember all my sick days, where I swear, I was just survival parenting (that’s what I call this time period). The second trimester, I started being able to pick myself off the floor a little more around that golden 14-week mark. However, I still felt sooo tired and just a little all over sick, almost every day, till about noon…so weird…not as bad, but still bad, where I’m having mom guilt. Guilt, like I’m not being present and vibrant enough for my child.
As well, I didn’t get that burst of energy you get in your second trimester, in fact…we haven’t even started her nursery. We are debating how much we really want to build/add onto our home etc. I don’t know, for some reason I’m not really too concerned, nor in nesting crazy mode. Baby will be in our room, for the first 4 months anyhow, so I’m pretty relaxed about it. Plus, I have all the essentials from Hartley’s first year. Either, I’m like amazingly calm and feeling way to experienced as a mom, or just too tired to really make any big decisions…either way…it’s working.
I’m so looking forward to the third trimester and giving birth…the only thing that worries me is the addition of a second baby. I thought one baby was so easy…but two…ummm…I get it...it’s about to get difficult and fast!! My number one goal this year, is to release a little of the “I must do it all myself attitude” (which has been with me my entire life) and hire a little help a few hours a week. I know I’m going to start needing some “just me” time, to revive and refresh my soul, so that I can be the best mom possible to my girls. (Ooh that sounds so good…“my girls”!) I’ve only had a handful of these little moments, these past 19 months, with baby Hartley. I know I need to step up the, taking care of me part, a little more. My version of that thus far, has been, no naps and staying up till 1 -2 am to squeeze some of that in. It’s time to be a little less hard on myself, and give myself a few hours a week. Well, I just put it out into the universe to all of you…so, now I have to follow thru.
Thank you for reading and taking this journey with me…Pregnancy is literally the most beautiful and blessed journey of my life (along with meeting and marrying my husband). I’m so grateful, even with all the sickness and complete exhaustion…I’m so grateful to be pregnant again! Grateful, grateful, grateful!!